My best friend

You’ve been my best friend

Since we were little girls 

You are my “sister” honey

I would have it no other way

I can’t recall exactly when we met

But I truly have no regrets 

Neither time nor distance 

Could ever change the way 

I feel about you...

I love you my precious sister

Wish you lived a little closer 

Though life’s been like a roller coaster

I have enjoyed this bumpy ride

Glad to have had you tag along 

and enjoyed having you by my side 

Happy 60th my darling sister Martha 

21st July 2019

Ancestry

Searching through my family history 

Looking forward to finding the past 

Where did we come from? 

What makes us who we are?

How did it all happen? 

This migration from Hungary...

How could they leave family behind

Travel halfway across the world 

To land here in this hot, dry land 

Survive and build their family 

This is where I was born 

This is my homeland; my heart 

My soul resides herein 

Yet all is brought to life 

As I seek our origins 

Anne of Guichen Bay

We met and found in each other 

Kindred spirits straight away 

As we opened up like long lost friends

Parted from each other in some way 

We talked of pain and suffering 

We shared our feelings on that day

Parted upon good terms 

In my memories, you stay

We were taking a little journey 

Booked a motel room to stay

Things changed; time brought forward 

Arranged to arrive on a Wednesday

As I walked in Anne was smiling

It was just like yesterday 

Though time had actually flown

We hugged and said g’day

Funny how things worked together 

So we could meet again that day

She’d come in; just for a couple of days

To help out before retiring 

No longer would she work 

Here in Guichen Bay 

Her grandchild was arriving 

A new life coming to stay 

So the angels worked together 

Bringing forward our stay

So that I could meet once more

With my friend; Anne of Guichen Bay

The phone call

Waited weeks to hear her 

Waited ever so silently 

Finally, the word came

“Will you chat with me?”

Of course, I am ready 

To hear what you have to say 

Been waiting; seems like forever

But it’s only been 30 days 

This silence between us

Has been so hard to take

Finally, all is forgiven

Finally, things have changed

Lunch is on for Friday 

Better times on the way 

Lunch with Shelley

The ogre

He turned into an ogre 

Though human 

He was supposed to be 

Angry, spiteful, nasty 

Words erupted 

Spilling like lava 

Burning; flowing outward

Towards me

Now I’ve faced him

Taken him; front on

No ogre there 

To confront me

But a lonely old man

Pretending to be he

This pain inside 2014

This pain inside must be told
For how else could anyone
Ever get to understand
That the hurt must bide
Until something makes it erupt
Until some catalyst, you never knew
Causes it all to come forth
And spew out like a molten river
Making it escape the bonds
You thought you knew...

26th December 2014

Pieces of me

There are pieces of me

Everywhere; here and there

Here inside; in memories

In my children, grandchildren too

A part of me is in Chile

Another few bits and pieces

Here in South Australia

Some in Hungary

I have left pieces of me 

In all those places

Where I have lived 

Over these past 62 years

Other pieces of me

Are shed with my tears

For my mum and dad

Losing them has made me sad

I watched a movie 

Just the other day

"Fences" starring

Denzel Washington

And Viola Davis

Made me cry my tears

Rose cried her tears at the loss 

Of Troy (her husband)

Like her; I realise

How much of me

I surrendered

Over the years

As I grew smaller

Withdrew...

Into myself

Giving up; pieces of myself

Becoming a mere shell

Being someone else...

How is it possible?

To lose so much

Of oneself

To go back into me

To un-grow...

To halt

For so long

Only now am I

Finding myself again

Like a flower bud

In stasis

Now growing

Opening up...

Blooming...

Showing my true colours

Hidden for so long

Here...

Deep within

I like me!

I like this feeling

It's taken me

Most of my life

To get to this place

Where I am 

Almost 

Comfortable 

In my own skin

 
Began 8th September 2019

Finished 23rd November 2019