Forgive me Lord

I am so sorry my dearest Lord

For trying to escape this void

I was distressed and could not see

I just wanted to escape: to flee

I’d had enough of his bullying

I’d had enough: thought to leave

But in taking all those tablets

Yes: swallowing them whole

I thought to end my life

Thought to leave this life behind

Now: as it comes to being six long months

Since you left us: since you’ve been gone

I cannot believe how much it still hurts

How much pain remains for us to cope with?

Oh dear Lord: I am so sorry: to think I could just leave!

Leave my poor children alone in their grief

Oh dear Lord how could I even think of

Becoming a silly life thief: oh the grief!

It is only now as I look back: truly understand

After suffering so much pain myself

After wiping the tears from my children’s faces

Please dear Lord I beg your forgiveness!

Please my children: I beg your forgiveness!

All this love I would have missed out on

All this precious joy I now feel with my grandchildren

I would have given up so much: for what?

Oblivion, supposed peace, unending sleep?

Suicide is over-rated: it brings no peace!

It just brings more anguish and pain

It just continues to torment your loved ones

It is just so very wrong to take your own life

Thinking you will escape the torment!

Thinking you will escape the pain!

For when Jesus comes again in glory

When all the saints will be awakened

When all is over and done here on earth

Then will you be brought back to answer

Yes then you will have to suffer all over again

For judgement comes from heaven up above

Everyone: yes everyone will be judged again

The book of life will be opened wide and

Everything under the sun will be dealt with

Yes; one by one: we will answer to our Lord!