Battling the waves

I was battling the waves
Determined to get out there
Though they kept me dancing
I did my best to conquer them
At times I thought of retreating
At times I thought of giving in
But just like my saviour promises
I will not give up: will not give in
He has promised to be with us
He has promised we can win
So as I battled those big dark waves
And also as I have battled against sin
I hold onto Jesus' promises
I hold firm and just dig my toes in!
He has already saved me: this He promises
This battle against evil: together we will win!

Hopelessly devoted

I am devoted to Jesus
He is my soul mate
I love Him so much
He it is who holds the gate
He has already paid my price
Has already given all
So I am just returning
A tiny bit of love to Him
Yes to Him who loves us all! 
He took my sins from me
He carried them for me too
Then as He was dying
He cried His tears for me
Yes those tears He cried 
For me and for you!
Have you even thanked Him?
Have you said or done anything?
To let him know how you feel?
To repay His magnificence?
He is waiting for your answer
He is waiting for us all
To come a little closer
To admit that we all fall!

The Samson effect

They say that a man’s power

Is held in his long hair

They say that Samson lost his

When Delilah cut his hair: true!

Is this a mystery: is it science?

What do you think? I’m asking you?

Back in the 1970’s

During the Vietnam War

The US army started recruiting

Indian trackers into their ranks

They were thoroughly tested

On so many amazing tasks

They passed with flying colours

They passed into history

But what’s the true story?

Well may you all ask?

It was totally amazing; totally insane

The very same thing happened

Over and over and over again

When these brave young men were tested

They passed the survival tests with ease

But: after their precious long locks were shorn

They lost their powers: like a terrible disease

They could not sense the danger

They could not escape attack

They were at a loss: defenceless!

They had simply lost the knack

So this is why they keep their hair long

This is the honest truth: it is real

Though they lost their promise

They lost their sense: their feel

It was when their hair extended out into the breeze

Sensing: feeling: all around them

With uncanny ease: it was like a sixth sense

But after their hair was lopped: crew cut

These amazing senses simply disappeared

So grow your hair long and wild

Allow your senses true reign!

Let me explain: it is ordained

Just as Samson lost his strength and power

Just as these young men lost their strength

When the hair grew back it was amazing

It was like a total change in circumstance

It is in your long hair: therein lies the magic

It is determined by its length: so keep your strength!

Eye contact

Many people walking around 
Looking at their feet: looking down 
Don't want to make eye contact
Don't want to catch your gaze
Too lonely in the crowds 
Too sad to take a chance
Maybe you will look down your nose
Maybe you will stare: I suppose
These things are so ingrained 
These feelings of hurt: feeling strained
So instead of walking with poise
Amid the chatter: amid the noise
They slump down: try to hide
Don't want to share the pain inside
Don't want to socialise: be despised
So they tread softly: just in case
Feeling apart from the human race
They never even see me smile
As I try to share this joy inside
Dear Lord I'm trying to make the change
Trying to show this love you gave
Trying to show that some do still care
Trying to be the sunshine in another's days

Too good to be true 2

If something is too good to be true?

What are you really going to do?

Pray for the chance to believe it?

Pray for the patience to achieve it?

Jesus died to save us: yes He did

Yes He died to save me and you!

You're just too good to be true

I can't take my eyes off of you

You'd feel like heaven to touch

Oh how I love you so much

And I thank God I'm alive

You're just too good to be true!

Can't take my eyes off of you

I love you Jesus 

And if it's quite alright

I'll love you Jesus 

I'll pray to you each night

Trusting you when I pray

I love you Jesus

And if it's quite alright

I'll love you Jesus

I'll pray to you each night

Just let me love you

Let me love you

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you

You'd feel like heaven to touch

Oh how I love you so much

And I thank God I'm alive

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you!

Simple words

Sick of people saying things
But never actually meaning
Their words fall from their tongues
Soon forgotten as daylight comes
Life and other things get in the way
As the world intrudes and then some
Leaves us spinning around and around
Been let down so many times
Now my heart is doubting
Why would anyone want me you see
All my old teenage fears returning

I want to beleive

I want to believe in love again
But distance is a killer and 
No one seems to understand
This job that has me in here
The Lord has given me this test
What I must do to repay Him
For saving my life on Calvary
I have a long journey ahead of me
This road is long and winding
Just like The Beatles wrote
I don't know yet where it will take me
And when it will be done: no clue: not one!
It is in God's hands that I place it!

Guilt trips

So many feeling sad and low

So many things I wish he’d know

“I love you!” only one of them

Many words I wish I’d said

The times past: all in my head

Oh Tim it makes me sad

You thought there was no other way

I almost went back that very night

I couldn’t bear another fight

Shelley feels bad: she was at work

She checked her messages at lunch time

But by then it was way too late

You’d already fallen: met your fate

Vanessa feels your loss: cries a lot

So many ifs and buts: suppose it was

Too late to take back any words

We all just wanted you to move

Get up and exercise a little bit

Everything just seemed too difficult for you

I should have tried to force you

To move a bit: to exercise: live a bit

But I only wanted you to live

You know we all meant well

Wanted only the best for you

I know I said “That’s your choice”

To those negative things you said

Now those words keep repeating in my head

“It’s your choice! I cannot live your life

I cannot do it all for you

You have to do it! You do!”

Michael feels sad because

He went to be with his mates

Who’d have thought it would be the last

Time he’d see you: face to face

He didn’t want to see you crying

Instead he saw you later on

Too late for you’d already lay dying

Oh honey why did you have to do it?

Was there no other choice?

Did you not hear that still quiet voice?

Too much torment in your mind

Life really was way too unkind!

I know now there are so many

“What ifs” we all wish we’d known

Perhaps if this or that was said

If you’d only been able to comprehend

We love you and always will

Just wanted to give you a little push

Keep you from stagnating: keep you from…

Andrew wishes he’d not said

“It’s about time mate!

She’s done it all for you for so long!

How about helping out a bit

Get off your arse and work a bit

You can’t just sit and sit!”

Mark regrets his words to you

After Nana’s funeral 4 years ago

When he said to you

“Don’t want to see you!

Don’t want to talk to you!

Don’t want to know you!

Don’t call me!”

He didn’t realise those words

Would end up breaking your heart

Had no idea you’d just fall apart

Richard too: he never called

Was quite happy to live his life

Quietly with his family

No stress: no pain!

But thought he’d see you again

Ian thought he was doing you a favour

Loaned that car for you to use

Never knowing what you would choose

“If onlys” never seem enough

“Why did you think you had no other choice?

Why didn’t you stay with him?

Could he have called again?

Stayed closer to you?

At this time of need!

Our poor hearts bleed

For those unanswered questions

Never will we truly know

For you are gone to God

And still we grieve!

Welcome home

The joy of meeting loved ones

Returning home from overseas

Smiling faces: grinning from ear to ear

After being alone: shedding a tear

The blessed peace of reunion

God’s grace in a safe return

No words are needed

No long diatribe

Just the sight of happy faces

Yes: grinning: happy to be back alive!

Will you wait for me?

Will you wait for me?

Until I am truly free?

It is difficult I know

But this is the choice He has given me

To do His will: to write for Him

To empty out this life of mine

Turn it upside down: tell it all!

Though it will be painful

Though it will hurt me too

I have given my word

I have accepted His decree

I must complete this journey

For only then will I be truly free!

So far to go

I have so far to go until I am free

Of all this anger: anguish inside of me

I am tortured by my early life

I know of the plans my Lord has for me

I must open up this heart of mine

Tell my tale so all can see

Just how much My Lord has given me

This catharsis: this emptying

Must be told: must go ahead as planned

I am not my own right now

I am sold unto my Lord

For it was He who saved my soul

For it was He who gave His life for mine

I must repay His gift: I must complete

This massive task He has given me

Then and only then will I be free

Questions

Questions growing in my head

Are these words that you’ve said?

Are these words that I’ve said?

Crazy, stupid love?

Then the doubts come crowding in!

What if?

What if you don’t like what you see?

What if you don’t like the real me?

What if it’s all just a dream?

What if it just cannot be?

What if?

What if?

What if?

Looking for Romeo

Oh Romeo, Romeo

Wherefore art thou?

Is my heart being tortured?

Is my mind being perverse?

Is this all just a dream?

Or worse: is this a curse?

Distance: too far to conquer?

Time too fast to be real?

Has my heart flipped: am I crazy?

Am I acting like a silly girl?

What is happening to me?

I’m acting like a love-sick teen!

I should be more circumspect!

I should be realistic: it is just a dream!

Silly me

Am I being silly?

Getting carried away?

Can love happen? Like this?

On any given day?

What if I am mistaken?

What if you change your mind?

Will I be left broken hearted?

If it doesn’t turn out that way?

Oh Lord I ask you?

Can it truly be happening?

In this day and age?

That’s what I’m asking you?

Help me to discern my way!

Big kid at heart

I’m just a big kid at heart

They say that love is an art

But in reality: just between you and me

Love is all about being happy

Feeling great: being glad

Taking a hold of the love to be had

Never regretting the trip

Even though it might make you slip

Maybe even fall: in love with love

How does one account for it?

Love is…so many things

The joy of seeing a smiling face

The scent of roses: of being full of grace

A summer breeze rustling in the trees

Love…I love you

Please come to stay

Don’t ever leave me: never go away!

These things I ask: these things I pray!

Happiness

Happiness is contagious

It makes me feel outrageous

Makes me want to sing and dance

Makes me want to jump for joy

Haven’t felt like this in years!

Ever laughed until you cried?

I have: once upon a time!

It was the weirdest feeling

Yes: weirdest feeling

I have ever described!

Doubting

Why do I doubt?

Why do I despair?

I must trust all to Him

I must let Him be my guide!

For just as He has already

Given me my life to live for Him

So I must trust it all to Him

He who loved us all before time began

He who loves us still!

I am a feather upon the breath of God

I will allow Him to lead and guide me still!

Refreshing: a love letter

 The beach was refreshing: beautiful

The air was so fragrant: sweet

The warm sand became a cradle

For my tired and aching feet

The sun was shining down on me

The sea breezes blew: touched my cheek, my hair

Do you know what? I was thinking of you!

Will you be my friend?

Will you be my all?

Will you become my everything?

Will you help me reach my goal?

I’m heading toward the heavens

That is my destiny!

But, what about you?

Will you come with me?

Will you offer me your heart?

Will you say we’ll never part?

Or is this just a silly fantasy?

Just crazy thoughts, on my part?

Ah my heart is melting

I want to hear your voice?

Keep whispering sweet nothings to me but

Don’t want to be left without a choice

But seriously: how can this ever work?

How can we be?

When time and distance intervene

In this wonderful chemistry!

Peace at Marino Rocks

At the beach listening to the crashing waves

Feeling the kiss of the afternoon sun

Fresh sea breezes comfort me

Precious oxygen is in flow

As I gain what comfort I may find

Here in nature: here where life is a-glow

The negative ions explode around me

The blessed Sabbath hours fly by

And His blessed peace surrounds me

This I surely do love and know!

Marino Rocks beach

At Marino Rocks beach

The boat ramp is concrete

On one side is soft white sand

The other: full of rocks

It looks deceptively smooth

But, if you dig too deep

You will find the smooth rounded stones

Hiding from view: just below the surface

Just beneath the soft white sand

Ready to trip your feet

Ready to stub your toes

Meeting at Marino Rocks

 I’ve come to meet the sea

I’ve come to find the peace

That only fresh air brings

Where the land meets the sea

The ocean waves are calling me

The sea breeze beckons you see

So I follow along the coastline

Seeking: yes seeking my Lord: yes Thee!

Crashing waves greet me

Cooling water for my wandering feet

I found the perfect lookout

Yes: a high perch: overlooking

The majestic briny deep

A few fishermen are floating

Hoping to get a catch

But I have something better

Yes: I have caught and held firm

I find my Lord is here with me!

Along this rocky coastline

Along this wave-tossed beach

It’s like some alien landscape

Like something out of long lost tales

Volcanic looking rocks abound

Many pebbles litter the ground

Wet and brightened by the foaming sea

Oh dear Lord: I came to find Thee

Yes indeed!

I came to find Thee!

Right here in nature!

Upon this rocky beach!

Far away the yachts are sailing

Tiny sails glinting in the sun

So many people out in nature

Exercising: having fun!

Following the coastline: bouncing along

Out in the bright afternoon sun

A few seagulls flying overhead

Ever searching for some food

Some proffered bread

I sit upon these massive rocks

Searching ever within

Seeking to find my salvation

Seeking to find that inner peace

Yes that inner peace that comes with

Understanding: accepting: loving

The fact that my dearest Lord

Had already saved me

Yes He has paid my price already

His blood has washed me clean

And ever will I stay

Nearer my dearest Lord to Thee!

All is good

All is good upon the earth
Jesus: our saviour from His birth
Has dominion over all who care
He it is who will come back in the air
He will come in the clouds: in glory
People tell of His wondrous story
Spread the joyful word around the world
For Jesus is coming soon...
He will return and even death
Will conquered be: all will see
That The Lord is mighty
The Lord is strong
He comes to right all wrongs
Yes: He comes to deliver us: you see
Yes: He comes to take us home into glory!

Laid to rest

Today we laid to rest
Tim's ashes at West Tce.
He is with his family
I feel this is for the best
Though we have shed our tears
We have allayed our fears
Give him over: so to speak
Into God's mighty hands
He is asleep in The Lord
There he will be eternally
Until The Lord
Comes again: and then
When those in Christ shall rise
Then: I hope to see him again
Among the lambs of God
One among the many
Being taken up into heaven
To be crowned in glory
Amen
 24 October 2014

Flow

The words just flow
Don't you know?
They come from God above
Telling this sorry world
All about His majestic love

The words

He gives the words
To touch the soul
He loves us all
This whole dark world

It should have been me

It should have been me
Upon that painful cross
It should have been me
Tortured and at a loss
It should have been me
Up there upon the cross
Not He who died for me...

Chatting online

Let us chat here a while

Let us just talk and smile a while

You’ll ask me questions and maybe I will tell

Then it will be your turn

You’ll have to answer some as well

“Generally” we’ll talk of things

Maybe “In depth” too

And later on we’ll wonder

How our paths met: have gelled

About so many things: how it all began?

That’s the thing about leaving things

All up to God to decide

He sends us out on pilgrimage

He leads us if we let Him guide?

Then lo and behold we meet our friends

And wonder at the role destiny has played?

The rock pool

Tiny little sheltered rock pool
Calm and peaceful here
Though the waves are crashing
Nothing touches your tranquility
Soon: as the ride returns
Soon as all things must be
The waves will come crashing
Disturbing your sweet tranquility
Tiny limpets clinging to the rock
Will surely buffeted be
As sea comes crashing in
As the waters meet the shore
Yes this is the daily meeting
That God has ordained for thee
Every day repeated: yes surely
Every day will come again
Just as God ordained: for eternity
Yes the waves may come
Yes the waves may be
But always dearest Lord
They follow after Thee

Sea foam

We are painting together
We are singing our old songs
Enjoying our time together
Loving the comeraderie
As we go about our day
My granny flat is almost finished
The builder's been and gone
The old garage is gone too
Now a new life beckons me
Here I will be happy
For as long as I can be
Who knows what the future may bring?
Who knows what will happen in the end?

The colour I have chosen
Is "Sea Foam" a cooling shade
Pale and bluey green...
Just like the ocean waves
On a hot cloudy summer's day
Just what I need right now
A refreshing...a renewal of my life
Wish I could just paint over it all
Start anew: I guess I really am
Alone to find my way now
Alone but never really alone
For my Lord is always with me
His blessed angels too
The Holy Spirit comforts me
No matter where my feet should chance to roam
They are always with me: always at home
For my heart is His temple
Yes, inside: this is where He makes His home!

Into the pale blue sea

Been so hot today: 37 degrees C they say
Many people at the beach!
Children's voices screaming
The sand was hot and gritty
The water had a chill
So many people paddling
Trying to escape the heat
I wandered down the boardwalk
My feet were leading me
Into that cooling water
Into that refreshing sea
Though the clouds had misted over
The gentle waves were calling me
I had a strange and eerie feeling
For it was so difficult you see
To tell where sky began and ocean ended
It all looked the same to me
Pale blue skies and clouds upended
The horizon barely visible to see
But as the chill waters enveloped my body
It was hard to keep going forward
Could have been so easy to retreat
But with my heart and mind pulsating
I swam into that pale cold sea!

Jesus' Pebbles

All different shapes and sizes
All different colours and forms
Just like the human population
These pebbles show me here
In Jesus' eyes we are all real beauties
There is no difference: it is clear
For just as He loves all His children
He holds each and everyone of us dear
He does not differentiate between us
He sees inside our very hearts that beat
He longs to bring us homeward dearest
That we may gather at His precious feet!

Clinging to the Rock

I am clinging to the Rock
The Rock of my salvation
Jesus is the one who died
To provide us all: our Salvation
He gave it all: blood sweat and tears
To pay our price: to save us!
Sinners all: but God so loved us
That He gave His son!
What more could our Father have done?
Isn't this greatest gift of all?
Enough!
Isn't it more than enough?
He died for me: He died for you!
So that we would have a chance
But do you now?
Not even give a second glance?
Do you just go about your life?
Do you carry on: merrily, gaily?
No thought to the next day?
Please listen and do as i say!
He is coming: yes He is!
He is coming: soon He will be here!
Coming in the clouds!
Hear the great shout!
He comes in glory!
To be the happy ending
In this magnificent, long told story!

Hook line and stinker

It's such a crying shame
Many people are so cruel
To them should go the blame
To them should go the ruin
They think to steal another's life
Take everything: cause such strife
Those poor, lonely, sad and abused
Taken to the cleaners: left bemused
Lost their money: lost their self respect
Those poor, who many others reject
Too old,  too overweight
What ever their sorry state
In heaven's name: God above
Leave them alone you bullies!
They too just need some love!
The scammers prey on loners
Those who are poor at heart
Those who are sad and all alone!
They steal anything they can
Leaving many to just restart! 

A Daughter's sadness

These things that she will miss

First of all her daddy’s kiss

The comfort of his loving arms

The hugs that came each time

They met, talked and reminisced

The chance to walk her down the aisle

These things that sting: after a while

He’ll never see her children’s smiles

He’ll never hear their laughter

Never wipe their tears: but never fear

The stories she will tell of him

The silly things that made her smile

The happy times and all the while

These memories will linger on

As one day she will look into the eyes

Of her newborn son and there will see

The shape of his face: the cleft chin

That wicked little grin so like her dad’s

Little things in mannerisms and things

That will call her bluff: make her cry

And all the while she will smile to think

Of those days when she was young

When she slid down his face as he sat

The way she curled up beside him in his chair

The way he used to twirl his hair

Yes there will be times when sadness comes

But also days of happiness too later on

And daddy will be there in photographs

These will never fade away: no they won’t

For those genes will carry on and on

Those little things will still be done

To honour his name till kingdom come!

Don't worry be happy

Love that simple song 
From a few years ago
Don't worry be happy
Trust in our wonderful Lord
He loves us that is true
Every one of us: yes!
Me and you! Me and you!
So trust in Him
Lift up your eyes
Soon He will be coming
In those glorious skies!

While you were sleeping 2

While you were sleeping

I said a little prayer

While you were sleeping

I asked my dearest Lord

To send His angels to you

As they watched your lashes

Laying gently upon your cheeks

I asked His precious angels

To pour some happiness

Into your coming weeks

Good news 2

Good news

I want to

Get over

These blues

Help me please

Pray for me

Help me to be free

From sadness

From these tears

I need a friendship

That will never end!

That will always!

Be there for me!

Dreaming Hide and seek

I dreamt of you last night

I was hiding from you

Like children playing

Hide and seek

I was trying to escape

I am scared of loving again

I will not lie to you!

I am afraid of…

What am I afraid of?

Of not being appreciated

Of not being heard

Of not being loved in return

Because of my past I am afraid

Feeling trapped maybe

Silly things I know

But very real to me!

Dreams are sometimes just that

Silly bits of stuff that

Run over into the subconscious

Little fears and worries that

Settle in to stay

Running riot in dreams

At the end of a tiring day

The dark side of your moon (A letter)

I need to know about

The dark side of your moon

I need to know how you react

When you’re feeling all alone

What do you need to stay sane?

How do you let off steam?

You’ve obviously seen many things

That would drive a man to drink

Please let me in: show me how you think?

Please tell me: what you do to cope?

Share with me: allow me to live in hope!

I understand…

No! I probably have no idea

What it is like to live in fear?

What it is like to live with the stress?

That comes with such a job

The pressure that climbs up

Constantly under duress

How do you keep your cool?

How do you not lose your head?

How do you cope with losing?

Your mates: on a daily or weekly basis?

My father-in-law was the last to survive

Three ships were sunk under him

He had to toss his mates overboard

As they died: as they succumbed

What terrible things to do and see

Such baggage to bring home with him

He drank to drown his sorrows

Drank to escape those nightmares!

My husband too was saddened

By the things that happened to him

Losing his dad: put into a boy’s home

Beaten and abused: what a start?

No wonder he was broken!

Had no heart left to live his life: so much strife!

He was always searching for something

That elusive thing that would help

Make him feel better: anything I suppose

To keep those demons at bay!

So he smoked those cigarettes

From the age of 13 he took them up

Later he found marijuana: smoked that too!

After we married he’d drink a few beers

He wasn’t a very nice drunk

Later still he needed more to hide behind

Stronger things than just the Panadol

Tried to kill himself at the age of 13 years

He was always at the doctors getting his fix

Morphine for those constant headaches

Anything to dull the terrible aches inside

Harder drugs were to come as he went on

Nothing seemed to be enough to stem the tide

He always needed that something to hide behind

Harder drugs became his crutch: it was so sad

He just couldn’t see that what he sought

Was lying there: right inside: within his heart

But by then it was just too late

By then he just didn’t care

Everything was just too hard to change!