Fallen into sinfulness

Anger flares within me

A quick combustion of thoughts

How could he do this: lie to me?

Be so in cohorts with that evil serpent...

I am embarrassed: ashamed

He led me by the hand

Like a lamb to the slaughter...

Like a simple trusting child...

How could I fall so deeply?

For all those lies: he proposed

Fed me upon his bullshit: hurt me keenly

Like a knife wound: super imposed

Ah Lord I was mistaken

Was taken up and tumbled down

Thought I was the smart one

Now I am bereft: good days flown

He found the opportunity

Came, saw, conquered: won the war

Has left me desolate

I: the fallen city: war torn

Though others tried to warn me

One eyed: I saw nothing odd

In denial: I continued giving: I see

Now I am deserted: even by my God

In my mind: I asked: "how could you do it?

Did I mean nothing all along?

Was it all part and parcel?

Of your desire to bring me down”

Ah Satan, you had a field day

Bringing sadness after so much joy

Yet now I see I was but a temptation

A citadel to be beset: razed to the ground

Looking back upon my downfall

I finally see the darkness: I refused

To see: as I went blindly into the fray

A simple, naive woman: again abused 

He saw me coming: delighted in his lies

Never once did he think it wrong

To destroy another soul: to despise

This sad, lonely woman: he stringed along

I've been pouring over the photographs

I've been searching for the glitches

But never saw the dangers

As I acted like some in-heat bitches 

Satan drew the noose ever tighter!

Took hold of this sinful body, mind

Drew me down ever deeper: that blighter

Dragged me into the darkest depths; I find

I was lost along the wayside

Delivered into his evil, filthy hands

Ah Lord I gave into all those demands

I was shaped, moulded to his deceptive plans

Forgive me dear Lord for I have sinned

I lusted after this supposed "perfect" love

I had thoughts I couldn't tell my mother

Was brought lower than I ever planned

I knew he was "divorced" yet persisted

Thought I had the right to ask for love

Presumed it was God-given: ordained

Ah forgive me for my sinful demands

In my crazy mind I was "better"

Than I had any right to suppose

For I was a heat seeking missile 

Searching underneath his clothes

Seven deadly sins there are; it is said

It's like I was brought to every one

For I lusted, envied, hated, was full of pride

Was slothful, angry, a glutton for punishment 

Ah Lord these terrible thoughts within my head

I even wished his "ex-wife" dead...

So I could have my cake and eat it too

So I could still be close to you...

But...we cannot walk hand in hand 

With both Satan and the Lord

It is impossible to straddle that dividing fence

We must choose the one or the other

Choose the path you would follow

Choose eternal life over sinful death

For I would choose to follow Jesus

With every single breath I have left