It's been two years since I watched you slip away

Missing you my darling mum
It's been 2 years today
Since I watched you slip away
Rest in peace sweetheart...

All I have of you are memories
Kept here within my heart and mind
All others see is this photograph of you
A commemorative CD; a few things in kind...

But to me you were so much more
To me you were my precious mum
Though we didn't always see eye to eye
Together we watched the years skip by
You were there with me at every single birth
My precious babies filled you with such mirth
You held them close; cuddled them; held them dear
Taking them into your enormous heart; I shed a tear
For them you would give everything
You made them clothes; knitted; crocheted
Until you could no longer hold those knitting needles
Until you could only watch them; as they too
Had precious great grandchildren for you
We have passed on all those beautiful works of heart
That you had so lovingly created...
Now your great grand daughter wears those cardigans
Evaleah is being photographed in your creations...

You were the first person I actually watched die...
I was afraid when you breathed your last
I ran to the nurses at the Berri Hospital
Only to be told "It's okay; that's the way it happens"
I sat beside you until the undertaker came
I couldn't bear to leave you alone; not that you knew
You were asleep in God's arms; knowing nothing
Your body only a shell that your soul had used
To travel through this life; your soul had fled
Your essence rose from that empty shell
That had been you; it was no longer needed...

The only other dead people I had seen before
Were Nana Lindy and my late husband Tim
They were cold and grey...
Lifeless effigies of their former selves...

I never rally had the chance to know my grandparents
They lived in Hungary; so very far away
They lived and died there; I only met them once
My Szabo grandparents for a year...Imre and Julianna
When they travelled here to visit us in the late 1960's
My Szekeres grandparents when they visited for 3 months
in 1981; I finally got to meet them...Sandor and Roza

Just over two and a half months ago
I watched my dear father slip away
Rest in peace my darling dad
I miss you both so very much

I hope that souls of loved ones do get to meet up again
In heaven; to be together for eternity; as you both deserve
I once asked my dad "was mum your first girlfriend?"
He replied; with a twinkle in his eye
"My first and my last!
The best woman ever to grace this earth"
They met when he was 16 and she was 13
They were together for over 65 years
Married for 60 long years
Only with each other all their lives...

Rest in peace my darlings
I miss you so very much...

Christmas time is here again

Christmas time is here again
Please take care of one another
There are many idiots around
Bringing stress to every other
Tail-gating; rude and abusive
Taking very little care; a bother
Stressing out our peaceful lives
Endangering our children too
What's a poor woman to do?
When they use their car 
Just like a deadly weapon
To intimidate; frighten; threaten...

Please respect each other's space
Please be kind; be loving; respectful
It's supposed to be a blessed time
Not a complete and utter kerfuffle

Miss you mum and dad

Took carnations to the graveside
Stayed and talked for a little while
It was such a glorious sunny day
Parrots chirping all around; divine
I guess I've been feeling really sad
Cos I miss you both; mum and dad
Told you that it was okay; I am okay
I am happy that you are together again
Thanked you for taking care of me
Reminisced about a few old things
Thought of so many other days
Sorry; these carnations have no scent
So mum; I sprayed the with
Your favourite Beautiful perfume...
The trees were full of buzzing bees
Such a pleasant place to talk to you
Miss you; love you; bless you both
My darlings; I am thinking of you...
Rest in peace...

26th October 2018
Centennial Park Cemetery

Stone in love with you

"Stone in love with you"
Sang by The stylistics in the 1970's

Found this unusual stone today
At Crockery Bay near Port Elliot
I thought of my darling dad
Gone from me not so long a ago
Miss you dad! Wish you were here
Wish I could touch you...
Wish i could hear your voice too
But I guess this special stone will do
It reminds me of your gentle touch
Your simple; natural; easy going style
You were ever a gentle, loving soul
You were the best dad in the world
Never an angry word of yours
Did I ever hear; for many a long year
Thinking of you today my darling
Wish you were here with me
Enjoying this glorious spring day...

30th October 2018

Walking on the beach

Great Southern Ocean
Warm northerly breeze
Took it all in my stride
As I walked out my tears
The miles passed quickly by
As I shooed away those flies
Checked out all the wonders
Right there before my eyes
I needed to get out in nature
Needed to walk away my pain
Exercise; the medicine; the cure
So much turmoil; as ever; in my brain
Dad's been gone almost two months now
I know; life will never be the same...
Time alone will ease the pain...

19th November 2018

The light between oceans

Just finished reading this amazing book
Shed my tears; ah my shoulders shook
Couldn't put it down for days now
Had to find out; simply had to know
How this tale would go...
A mother's love; for her lost child
Believing she would return, somehow...
A baby found; cherished like her own
Would it last till she's grown?
Ah the troubles that arise
When desperation covers all with lies...

24th November 2018

The hungry duckling

She came into my vision
Poor little scrawny thing 
Looking bedraggled; starving 
Looking to eat; simply anything 
The look she gave me; begging
"Please feed me some morsel
Please give me anything"
I took pity on God's little creature
Sought to ease her suffering
Found the crust of a loaf inside
Brought it to her; hurrying
I broke it into tiny little pieces
The water; softening...
She came eagerly towards me
Almost flying; scurrying
Gulping down soggy bread crumbs
Quickly; desperately
With great urgency she ate...
The next day I couldn't find her
I was worried to say the least
Poor little darling creature
Poor little hungry beast
Today she came again to find me
That look of pain within her eyes
Looking just a little stronger
I was glad to help her; it felt nice
To see her quickly come in closer
To see the longing in her eyes
And as I bent toward her
I knew now; she would survive...

3rd December 2018

Number three no celery

Number three, no celery
Each time he orders there
He eats the same regularly
The lady knows him well
"Large serve?" she asks
"Yes indeed!" he replies...
The sizzling plate arrives
Steaming from its heat
Along with the steamed rice...
Enjoying all the vegetables
He slowly eats his fill...
Dripping sauce upon the rice
I love to see the smile 
There upon his face...
Enjoyed the meals we shared
Showing each other
Just how much we care...

Thursday 7th December 2018