Sad Zac

Today Zac was happy and Zac was sad

He was happy playing surprise presents

We kept rewrapping his black Spiderman

He kept saying what is it Nana?

I kept saying it's a surprise darling

He kept on being surprised over and over again

We had so much fun doing that

Later Zac was sad: he told me so

"Nana I'm sad, mummy is a meanie!"

"Why darling?" I asked
"Because she wants me to go to bed

I don't want to go to bed!"

My little rascal is two and a half years old!

Lonely city streets

 Driving along these city streets

Watching cars go by upon their beats

Traffic flowing everywhere

People engrossed in their own cares

Hurrying, rushing everywhere

No time to stop to even look about

People beeping horns; impatience rife

Everyone is always running late

Non-stop traffic: crazy lives

Too busy to even look at life

Poor old man crossing the street

Bent over double: both ends meet

His walking frame: his lifeline

As nobody seems to have the time

He must go out into this mess

Along the streets: heaviness

In his heart he knows his place

Nobody stops to ask his name

He is just one of so many

Lost to their own sorry fate!

Prince of hearts

A new prince is born
Congratulations William & Kate
A new life is so precious
A new life to care for
A new little prince to kiss & cuddle
To bundle up warm & hug a lot
What more could one wish for?
As long as all is well! 
All bits & pieces where they belong
Ten fingers & ten toes: you know how it goes!
Celebrating his arrival in great style!

Auntie Susie's lament

My auntie Susie came for a visit
Many long years ago she came
My dad & his brother & sister
Paid for her year long trip
They hadn't seen her for years
She looked just like my auntie Roza
And like Auntie Margit who also came
I'd never met her before as she lived
So far away in Hungary: my parent's homeland!
My dad gave her some Australian dollars
She forgot that her money was in her pocket
She was so upset because she thought
The money would disintegrate
Going through the whole wash cycle
She was in a panic: tears poured from her eyes
She was lamenting the loss of her valued present
Thank God our money is tougher than that
It survived the washing: it was fine!
That $20 note was all right and
Auntie Susie was smiling again!

Yummy crusty bread roll

Yummy fresh bread roll
Crisp & tasty: full of goodness
Added sliced Kraft Cheddar cheese
Tomato with salt & cayenne pepper
Thinly sliced onion too
Then yummy beetroot
Vegemite as well!
Placed into the toaster oven
Served just right!
Want a bite?
I'll share with you!

Lost money

I lost some money
I didn't worry
I knew that someone
Needed it more 
Than I really did
So I asked the Lord
To bless it for them
Knowing how things 
Really do work
In this world
I sent it off with love!

The Royal Adelaide Show

I remember listening in: to other kids at school
They all went to the Royal Adelaide Show
Every September: without fail: like finding
The Holy Grail: I just wished my parents
Would take us there one day but
We never did end up going to the city
I felt like that was always such a pity!
Finally I went with my boyfriend
When I was 18 years old: at last!
I got to go to the Royal Adelaide Show!
I still remember the excitement
As we bought our tickets & went in
The noise was so loud: such a large crowd
Thousands of people walking around
Eating the food; going on the rides
Winning prizes: screaming out loud!
So many people: so much noise
So much fun to be had: show bags!
Never even knew they existed until then!
Wow! What a big difference 
To the country shows: that's all I'd ever seen!
I still remember buying a Mexican hat
The flowers were brightly coloured
Pink, yellow, orange & blue
I loved it from the start: had it for many years!
Probably the same as many other people too!

The Loxton Show

The Loxton Show was such fun
As kids we went every year
Mum & dad took us 
Each October long weekend
Sometimes it was so hot
The cool drinks were so nice
The little bits of shade
Were made use of by everyone
I met my school friends there
We'd run off together in the sun
Playing among those animals
Displayed at the show
Joy rides were the go
We had a couple of rides each
Bought a few trinkets here & there
Won little toys on the Laughing Clowns
Throwing ping-pong balls down 
Their wide open laughing mouths
Watching them as they bumped down
Adding up those numbers
To see if we'd won big!

My pain has gone

Hip hip hooray!
My pain has gone away
It wasn't always so
It really had to go
It took me quite a while 
To realise that fact
Now I can relax
No more pain killers for me

Hip hip hooray!
My pain has gone away
It wasn't always so
It really had to go
Now I really am pain free
I can climb up trees
Yes now I can relax
No more doctors' visits for me!

Hip hip hooray!
My pain has gone away
It wasn't always so
It really had to go
I've cancelled my appointments
It didn't hurt me at all for
Acupuncture is no longer the go
No more doctor's bills for me!

Childish behaviour

Many years ago; at primary school
We were asked if we wanted
To enter items in the Loxton Show
I had nothing that I had ever made
So I tried to enter a tiny doll 
A friend of mum's had dressed her for me
I thought I could get away with it but
Thankfully my headmaster talked to me
He said "You have to have made it yourself
You cannot enter someone else's item!"
I just wanted to do what everyone else was doing
I didn't really understand as yet how it all worked
But I am glad that I did the right thing & 
Withdrew the doll & crocheted dress & 
Took my little dolly home with me!

The Phone call

Phone call received
Last Monday 22 July
Hubby Tim took the call
On the other end
A mother grieved
She was crying: upset for sure
"Thank You" she said
"You don't know me but
I know you from "The Leader"
Though her tears flowed
Her lost child remembered
Her sadness overflowed
She let me know
How much my letter explained
Her sadness noticed by that road
If only I could maybe lift a bit
That heavy load: she carries
Help grieving parents 
In some small way
Then that is all that's 
Necessary to make my day!

Precious little girl

I got to hold a precious little baby girl
4 weeks old: so tiny & light
She was like a little doll
Such little tiny hands moving about
Already she has her likes & dislikes
She likes to keep her hands free
Doesn't like to have them covered up
So new mum & dad cuddle her
Hold her close & talk to her
Letting her know just how precious
Her little life is to them!

True love

I've got a new friend
She's a lovely lady
Had a tough old life
Suffered through some strife
But now a new life beckons
Right here on our shores
Something different all right
Guided by my dear Lord's might
I pray it all works out!

Underneath: little eddies twirl
Will it be all right?
Will everything be fine?
Am I really accepted by his family?
What happens to me?
Should anything go wrong?
Where do I stand in all these plans?
Lord please help everything go well!
These prayers are floating up to you!

I'd rather be outside

It's still cold inside
Though the sun shines
Winter still reigns
As coldness creeps up
Walls emanating: coldness!
I'd rather be outside
Catching rays of sun
Feeling warmth & brightness
Than sitting here in the gloom!
Sunshine beckons me
Her graceful arms open wide
Welcoming me outside
Luring me from this room
Yes! I'd rather be outside
Smelling fresh scents 
Upon blushing breezes
Flowers dancing in the sun
Looking forward to having
Lots of fun in the coming
Months enjoying summer sun!

It feels like spring

Today is a windy day
Breezes come & go
They twist & twirl about
Leaves shimmering
In sunshine bright
A few wispy clouds
Deep blue azure skies
Birds twittering
Magpies fluttering
Trees already flowering
Expecting spring is near
Lord what a beautiful way
To welcome each new day!

We're back

Zac is two & a half
He notices everything
Lately he's been saying
"We're back" 
Whenever  we return
From an outing
Yes he gleefully yells out
"We're back!" as we get home!

August in July

The weather is changing
Things are getting weird
Now we're having Augusts'
Sunnier weather in July
I know the world is turning
I know that things are strange
But what is happening
Was prophesied long ago
Many storms are brewing
Many clouds bear down upon
Our sorely struggling earth
This is the price we have to pay
For all the pollution we let loose
Yes these are the truths we carry
As we approach our destiny!

Cayenne Pepper boots

Years ago: unfit I was
Always had cold feet
Used a good remedy
I sprinkled Cayenne 
Pepper in my boots
My feet were warm
My socks were pink
But I was happy so
With lovely warming
Cayenne pepper 
Yes in my boots!

George @ IKEA

Walking through IKEA
Wow! What a store!
So huge: so massive
So much stuff to score
We followed those arrows
Zac kept finding them
Showing us more & more
Then he found a dinosaur
Cuddled it: made it roar
Said it was like in Peppa Pig
Just like Brother George's toy
So now it's called George of course!

Harbour town

Went shopping at Harbour Town
Though the wind was cold: made me frown
We walked through those alleyways
Grateful for our warm clothing: anyways
We had to have our beanies pulled down
As we strolled through the empty streets
Hardly any shoppers: no-one to greet
Unlike in the summertime: when it's so busy
Yes then there are so many shoppers
But most definitely: not when we went!

Full moon

There's a full moon arising
There's a golden glow
She's lending her shining light
Showing us all where to go
Her pale face reminds me
Of that famous Mona Lisa
Like she's hiding something inside
There's more than she ever lets on
Oh full moon: delightful
You are such an eyeful
Reflecting sun's rays: full circle
Moon light streaming
Leaves me beaming
Happy to be seeing you!

A mother's broken heart

A mother's heart
Broken & tossed
Lying in the dust
Pain overwhelming
Tears never ending
Shattered by her loss
Oh poor dear mother
I am so sorry to hear
A young life taken
Way too soon

Spilt milk

I spilt some milk last night
I was so upset because
All my work was ruined
All my hard written lines
Covered in milky mess
I didn't cry but I still might
For nothing seems 
To be going right!
I am worried: afraid
That I still won't make the grade!
What if my Lord finds me wanting?
What if I do not make the grade?
Dear Lord I know you promised
That I was not to worry
That you would give me the words
But you see I am only human
I am not much of a saint
I worry that I am not good enough
To do this work for you
I am so insignificant: in my mind
I cannot hope to understand
That my dear Lord would want me
To do anything so grand
But though I am still frightened
I will not let you down
For I know my dearest Lord 
It will all go just as you planned
So I offer up my life to you 
My dearest Lord in heaven
Guide me; lead me; take my hand
I am ready to face this world
I am ready to make my stand
As long as I know you are with me
I will do just as we planned!

Kissable lips

Lord forgive me
I dreamt of him last night
 A man I knew long ago
Those kissable lips 
Drew my mind in tight
I saw us as we were
All those years ago
As we kissed and made love
On so many nights
I was just a young girl
He was so young too
But I thought it was love
How little I knew
To him I was just another
Of his flames I guess 
To me he was heaven
But the time was not right
So now as I dream on
I see him as we were
So young & so crazy
No cares in the world
Taking one day at a time
Just as we both aught!

The tide is turning

The tide is turning
The gulf opens wide
He hurts his family
This other man inside
He is just like Jekyll & Hyde
One day he is lovely 
The next he's a pain
His memory deserts him
His mind is on fire
Some days he's the good guy
But mostly he's not there
I pray for his health
I pray for his soul
But dear Lord thou knowest
The choice must be his
I cannot save him
It is all up to you
But how to make him see this?
How to make him understand?
That how he treats others
Is just the first thing
He drives us away
With his rants & tirades
Lord grant me patience
Lord help me hold back
For sometimes I am so lonely
In this marriage that's changing
I am his mother
As well as his wife
I cannot be everything
I cannot turn him around
So dear Lord of heaven
I offer up my prayers
Please Lord you know all
I know you understand
Help him to grow in grace
Help me grow in patience
So that I may be there
To guide him a pace!

Heavy hearted

My heart is heavy
My soul is torn
We argued last night
I woke up this morn
I prayed for his soul
I prayed for his health
But you know I cannot
Save him at all
He must want my help
He must make that call
But all I know is
He is angry & full of scorn
Lord how do I aide him?
Lord what more can I do?
He is so stubborn
He just doesn't understand
That he has to grow up 
And act the man
I guess I understand
After all we've had our times
It's just that sometimes
I feel he's so underhand
He forgets his promises
He forgets everything
Except for what he wants
That he knows for sure
This battle is raging
The world is at war
Only my dearest Lord
Truly knows the score!

Temper trap

Like crying over spilt milk
Worrying over words already said
Is a waste of time: yes it is!
Keep your words close to your heart
Bite your tongue: hold your breath
Anything to stop that tide
Anything to keep you sane
Anything to stop that blame
Yes please: keep your temper!
Nobody else wants it either!

Crying over spilt milk

They say it's no use
Crying over spilt milk
But what do you do?
When it happens to you?
Cry all you like
It won't help a bit
That's just the nature of it!

Zac & Co.

Though he is only two years old
My little grandson is so bold
He jumps off of chairs & things
He watches everything his brother does
He copies everything his brother says
He's unafraid of almost anything
Yes he's my little rascal after all!
Yesterday he said to me
"Nana Sue this is Santiago
Zecarias' brother you know!"
Pointing to himself as he said it!
He's understanding so many things
He know his shapes and numbers
His colours he knows as well
You know he's like a parrot
He copies everything Santiago does
Because he looks up to his big brother 
Just like any younger brother would!

Delicious aromas

Delicious aromas in my kitchen
Scents of banana & cinnamon
The oven fan is turning
Sending out delicious scents to all
We are waiting for banana bread
Banana cake: what ever you call it
The smells are still the same
Yummy & enticing...
Mmmm...so inviting...
Can't wait to get it out
Cut in slices: oh that's so nice
Let's eat it while it's warm!

Be careful: be kind

Be careful: be kind
Remember to unwind
Everyone needs love
Everyone needs understanding
We all have our stories to tell
You know that every one
Has their own ways & means
To get to the end of their dreams
Some will open up & speak
Others cannot accept that 
All is held inside: way too deep
They will all have to dig a little
Maybe even spit it out & dance a little
Their tales are so heavy a load
Out of those poor hearts & souls
It will struggle to unfold
Yet we are all the same inside
We are all made by God: in His image!

Cubby houses

Cubby houses are the go nowadays
Every time I see my grandsons
It's always the same: Nana let's make a cubby
So that's what we do: get out the blankets
Get out the rugs: set up the chairs
Cover them over: making them cosy
Santiago makes so many rooms
He's making a whole house 
Just for him & his little brother
Always changing them round
Always having so much fun
Playing together: laughing out loud
Yes; of my dear grandsons: I am so proud!

10 weeks to go

The Duchess of Cambridge is due any day
But we have to wait for 10 more weeks
Then our new baby will come to stay
Got tiny pink clothes ready to go
They are so cute you know but 
I want all the colours of the rainbow
To clothe our little girl: so I've been busy
Crocheting blankets for our precious bub
Soon she'll be here: needing so much stuff!
Nappies & blankets, clothes & toys too!
Yes! Getting ready is so much fun!
We've got the bassinettes ready
Baby blankets & rugs a plenty: pretty little socks 
We've even got some pretty pink shoes
They have butterflies upon them
Others have flowers & such
You can already tell 
We all love this new baby so much!

Introduction to messiness

I'm Nana Sue to my dear Grandsons
They love to see me: as I do them
I love to hear their voices every day
I guess it depends on what they say
Sometimes I can be grumpy
Sometimes I laugh a lot
I guess it depends on my hormones
Sometimes I just lose the plot!
How two little boys can: make such a mess?
Why does everything
Have to be tipped upside down?
Why is a huge mess a part
Of their visits every time they come around?
You know I love them oh so very much!
As soon as they go home 
I want them back again!
Yes it's true: I'm telling you!
As soon as they've gone home
I want them back again!

Millions of gossamer ribbons

There are millions of gossamer ribbons
Connecting us to angels in heaven
So many invisible connections
Unseen by human eyes: but they are there!
Heart to heart: mind to mind: soul to soul!
They are beautiful; understanding; kind
Jesus sends them drifting down
You've seen their feathers flying around
Soft & cuddly: sweet & loving
They tell us all that Jesus is soon coming!

Heart-light shining

Heart beat: throbbing, pounding
Heart light: shining, glowing
Together they are grounding
Together they are showing
That Jesus has been!
Will come again!

Heart beat: throbbing, pounding
Heart light: shining, glowing
Together they are grounding
Together they are showing
That Jesus has been!
Will come again!

Heart beat: throbbing, pounding
Heart light: shining, glowing
Together they are grounding
Together they are showing
That Jesus has been!
Will come again!

Heart beat: throbbing, pounding
Heart light: shining, glowing
Together they are grounding
Together they are showing
That Jesus has been!
Will come again!

He is coming!

Bitter Greens

Just read a good book
Called Bitter greens
The Rapunzel story
Retold again but with a catch
You remember how the father
Stole a bunch of herbs
To keep his pregnant wife
Happy and full of life & then
Oh to end up in so much strife!
From a bunch of bitter greens 
Comes so much tragedy
If only you could see
How much pain was caused
By that bunch of greens
Her desire for those herbs
Became too much for him
He could not bear to see her thus
So in dead of night
He stole those herbs of green
Did he regret his theft?
Of course: but it took many years
So much sadness; so many tears!
But life was never easy then
What choice had women then?
Very little say they had
In any of their lives
You either wed as bid
You could become a nun
Or there was the last option
To sell your body & your soul: for life!

My little man

He's only 5 years old
Yet he seems much more
Yes he's beyond a child
Like he's been here before
He said "don't cry mummy"
Don't you worry now!
I'll take care of you!"
You know it hurts so bad
When daddy acts so mad
He doesn't mean to be
But he just doesn't see
He thinks you're made
Of so much sterner stuff
He just doesn't understand
He needs to set you free
He needs to let you go
Have a few days away
Maybe he would understand
If he could only take your hand
Find out how your poor heart pains
Absorb it all into his head
Maybe things would be different then?
I guess I'll just keep praying then!

Tears

My girl's tears are raining down
Her beautiful face wears a frown
Mascara smudged beneath
Her beautiful eyes: puffy & red
He makes her cry; those awful tears
He should be helping her more
She carries his precious baby
Within her womb: her life's a tomb
Cold & grey: every day
I want to rage at him
I want to make him see
How he's hurting me
Through her: he hurts me too!
Oh Lord when will he see?
How my beautiful girl 
Is a part of me still! 

Honesty

Don't mess with me
Just want your honesty
Tell me the truth
Don't want any lies
Just be real sure
No compromise
Look me in the eyes
Tell me true
When respect is due
That's right: I read your lips
I look into your heart
I am not unkind
I understand your pain!
I don't look down upon any
I just want to save so many!
That is my purpose here!
Bringing God's love to all
That's my most precious job of all!

A lonely life (widows)

For many it is a lonely life
So full of hatred: full of strife
No matter how we feel
Life goes on around us
No matter how we act
Life goes on: it is a fact!
So after being together
For all those married years
Now it seems it's time for tears
Loneliness becomes the way of life
For so many widows of the day
People treat you differently
They don't know how to act you see
They can't seem to understand
So they just turn around & flee
You are left alone to struggle on
No longer invited to join the group
You are left outside upon the stoop
An outcast: simply because 
You now live alone: no partner
No one to talk to in your days
Shame on those supposed friends
Why can't they simply bend &
Extend the hand of friendship dear
Take you in & hug you near
That's what we all really need
To feel a part of this earthly family!

I ask and You provide (a little drizzle...)

A little drizzle never hurt anyone
Just let it fall and sink in son
The earth appreciates the dew
It lives beneath us, all around us
We cannot live without her...
It is our lives we take for granted
Only weeds are never wanted
What do you think I ought to do?
Clean out all that old detritus?
Renew my vows: re-ignite us?
Lord I ask and you provide!
Lord I beg you; stay by my side!
I care not how others see me
It is how you look right through me
That makes me realise
You: dear Lord are so wise
You my dearest Lord do wait so patiently
You hold back those winds of war
Your angels hold back those evil tides
They do Thy will: they mesmerise
I am but a tiny human mind
But when I open up my heart and soul
Allow You in to take control
The joy that flows here inside my brain
How could I ever hope to explain?
That is when I am so full of hope!
That is how I am able to cope!

Late at night

It's late at night and I've given up the fight
I cannot just toss and turn all this long night
My mind is wide awake: got to put on the brakes
Can't let insomnia win: must try for goodness sake
Got to do something about it!
So as I lay here once again
I talk to God and invite him in
Ever always will I let Him guide me
For He is waiting for my call 
He is ever beside me: takes my hand
He lives inside here: within my heart
This body is His temple: His love for me is ample
Yes: His love is all I need: His words: my daily feed!

Mah Jong Memory tester

They say that people
Learn new things every day
Well I guess that's true
How about you?
Do you understand?
All about this grand plan?
We are made of miracles
Yes that's what I feel!
Miracles abound everywhere
God's shining face I see
Is looking down upon me: upon us all!
Our memories are amazing 
Our brains are wired
Along these lines!
Just read about our memories &
How our brains can work even better!
I enjoy playing Mah-Jongg
I like to play it fast
Using my brain to solve that test
I don't just look hoping to find
I actually let my brain take over
Allowing my inner senses to take the reins
Then it is so easy to see
Just how this brain works within me
Giving names to all those symbols
(I don't know their Japanese names)
So I give them "my" names
Like: numbers, flowers, seasons, dragons!
All this makes it easier for my brain
To recognise those gaming tiles
That's how it works: this miracle that is within me!

Feeling groovy

Today I've been feeling so happy
Something good is on its way
Yes all day long I've been smiling
My mind has been in a euphoric state
I've been feeling so great!
Something tells me
I'm onto something good!
Yes its great when you're happy
So full of joy: so full of life
No more strife: only goodness
I feel it in my bones
I know it in my soul
Yes my dearest Lord
I am ready for the good times
Just let them roll!

Friday 12 July 2013

Chinese Dragon Restaurant

Had a lovely meal at the Chinese Dragon Restaurant
The food was fantastic: just like it was years ago
When we used to take our young children there
How things have changed since then: very much so!
Vincent & Mary used to own & run it years ago
Now: after a few years off: Vincent is back as the chef! 

I still remember how Michael loved to watch the goldfish
He was just a little boy: fascinated by their colourful fins
Those bulging eyes: black & orange goldfish
Vanessa & Shelley loved the delicious food
Enjoyed the colourful lanterns & lights: red & black
It's been quite a few years since we've been back
Vincent & Mary had 2 girls & a boy (just like us)
Of similar ages as well! 
I still recall poor Mary undergoing amniocentesis
I begged my doctor to do every other test possible
Before I would give in & let him do that!
How memories come flying back to me now
Of all those times our little family would dine out
Enjoying everything about that lovely restaurant!

Heavy upon my tongue

So many words come rushing forth
My brain is overwhelmed!
How do I: a simple human being
Even try to keep up with you my Lord?
You understand our worrying!
You understand our fears!
Can't you see I'm hurrying
To get these words out to all my dears!
Can't you understand my plight?
I am doing everything as fast as I might!
These words you give to me Lord
They fly around up here: within my head
Sometimes I can't even sleep
Because you are showing me
So many absolutely amazing sights
I hear your words: I feel your loving touch
I am lost within this body here
I am lost unto this sorry world &
Though I try to rise above this strife
I am stuck right here upon this earth
I do not have any choice but
To await Thy second coming my Lord
But this I do not want to bear
I want to be with you my dearest one
I want to go with you to my new earth
I want to remain with you every day
But as for this: my purpose: it is all for you!
Yes my Lord: I do all to the glory of You!

Making new friends

I've been chatting to my new friend Erzsébet Lyza Deffend
Isn't it amazing how people so far apart can have a chat
There's no doubt about it: so much fun to be had
Talking to another soul so far away across the world
Thank you Lord for my new Magyar friend! 
Dear Lord on whom I depend: lead me; guide me
Show me everyday my dearest one
Just what it is you would like done
I am ready to do thy will: just love me: guide me still!

All Grown up

Today I took my son shopping
We found some nice jackets for him
He looked so grown up in them
It nearly made me cry for my son
(I guess I have to let him go now)
He's my grown up son @ 18
He wants to move out of home
He wants to start off; leaving me 
With Empty Nest Syndrome!
I thank God for my gorgeous son
I've had the best of his youthful years
Now it's time for all those tears
But I will not cry: do you know why?
Those first 16 years are all we are given
Then we have to let go: let them loose!
We must be happy to watch him go
I guess it's time to let go those reins
Allow him to move on & find his own way
A whole new life awaits my son
But I know he will not be gone long
He will call us up & chat a while
He will visit & thank us: his family
For loving him & giving him
Everything we had to offer!
As I imagine him living alone
I will send my prayers to him
I will give him up into God's hands
Where I know he will be cared for
He was my precious gift from God
Now I give him back into Jesus' hands
I know he will be safe there
For has not God declared unto us all
All we have to do is pray & believe
That our prayers will be answered!
Thank you Lord for loving my son
Thank you for your wonderful promises
I know that Jesus will take care of him
Set His angels about him; keep him safe!
As I know that Jesus will come again
So I know that Jesus will protect him too!
Lord I await your soon coming
The whole world awaits your coming
Jesus promised to return for us
To take us all home with him