Pure Oregano oil from doTerra

I had a rash that lingered
It would not leave me alone
Though antibiotics were used
Twice to treat it: it persisted
It kept returning on and on
We tried organic oregano oil
Bought online for a pretty fee
I used it every single day: religiously...
But still that rash refused to leave...
It was a terrible rash to control
The first doctor said it was a fungus
Gave me some useless cream...
The second said "let us take a swab"
Let's find out once and for all...
I thought it might be Shingles...
But in fact it was more terrible
A "staphlycoccus" infection was the verdict
More antibiotics said he...
Come back if this doesn't kill it
We'll attack it mercilessly...
With stronger and stronger antibiotics
I just thought: "Not on your Nellie!"

That's when I tried that first Oregano oil
It seemed to work but I needed heaps
Still it persisted: I scratched endlessly
Then I went to a farmer's market
I know that God led me there...
I asked about their pure oils
From the doTerra company...
There was just one bottle available
I knew it was there just for me
Took it home and used it...
Every single day for two weeks
Just one drop was all I needed
Just one drop was enough
To burn that rash that kept returning
And now, a month later...
I am almost rash free...

Thank you Lord for leading me...
The overuse of antibiotics for years
Has caused many mutated super germs
We are trapped in a vicious cycle
Where: unless we kill them all off
As quickly as is possible...
They return with much greater immunity
And nothing seems to be able to kill them
So I am trying natural therapies...
Herbs and pure essential oils
Those that God has provided
From the beginning of time

The language of herbs fruits and flowers

For centuries various meanings have 
Been attributed to herbs, fruits and flowers...
At one time a delicate posy meant...
Something more than a sweet scented gift
It is an idea found in a 19th century book
"Artistic language of flowers" by an unknown author...

Almond:                             Hope
Angelica:                           Inspiration, magic
Balm:                                Sympathy
Basil, sweet:                     Good wishes, fidelity
Bay leaf:                            "I change but in death"
Calendula:                         Uneasiness; grief despair
Carnation, deep red:         "Alas my poor heart"
Carnation, pink:                  Woman's love         
Chamomile:                       Energy in adversity
Clover, four leafed:            Be mine
Daphne:                             Glory, immortality
Dianthus:                           Bonds of affection
Dog-rose:                          Pleasure and pain
Fennel:                              Worthy of all praise; strength
Geranium, rose scented:  Preference
Gooseberry:                      Anticipation
Heartsease or Pansy:       Thoughts
Heliotrope:                         Devotion, or "I turn to thee"
Hibiscus:                            Delicate beauty
Holly:                                  Foresight
Honeysuckle:                     Generous and devoted affection
Iris:                                     Message
Ivy:                                     Friendship; fidelity; marriage
Jasmine:                            Amiability
Jasmine, Carolina:             Separation
Jonquil:                               "I desire a return of affection"
Lavender:                           Distrust
Lemon:                               Zest
Lemon blossoms:               Fidelity in love
Lily of the Valley:                Return of happiness
Marigold:                            Grief; despair
Mint:                                   Virtue
Mistletoe:                            "I surmount difficulties"
Oleander:                            Beware
Orange blossom:                "Your purity equals your loveliness"
Peach:                                "Your qualities, like your charms, are unequalled
Peach Blossom:                  "I am your captive"
Pear:                                   Affection
Peppermint:                        Warmth of feeling
Persimmon:                        "Bury me among nature's beauties"
Pink, red, double:                Pure and ardent love
Pink, single:                         Pure love
Pink, variegated:                  Refusal
Pink, white:                          ingeniousness; talent
Polyanthus:                         Pride of riches
Quince:                               Temptation
Raspberry:                          Remorse
Rhododendron:                   Danger; beware
Rose:                                  Love
Rose, burgundy:                 Unconscious beauty
Rose, cabbage:                  Ambassador of love
Rose, China:                       Beauty always new
Rose, damask:                    Brilliant complexion
Rose, deep red:                  Bashful shame
Rose, moss:                        Love, voluptuousness
Rose, musk:                        Capricious beauty
Rose, single:                       Simplicity
Rose, thornless:                  Early attachment
Rose, white:                        "I am worthy of you"
Rose, yellow:                      Decrease of love; jealousy
Rosebud, red:                     Pure and lovely
Rosebud, white:                  Girlhood
Rosemary:                          Remembrance
Rue:                                    Repentance
Sage:                                  Domestic virtue
Snapdragon:                       Presumption
Snowdrop:                          Hope
Sorrel:                                 Affection
Stephanotis:                        "Will you accompany me to the East?"
Stock:                                  Lasting beauty
Sweet pea:                          Delicate pleasures
Sweet William:                     Gallantry
Thyme:                                Activity or courage
Verbena, pink:                     Family happiness
Violet, blue:                         Faithfulness
Violet, sweet:                      Modesty
Violet, yellow:                     Rural happiness
Wallflower:                          Fidelity in adversity
Watercress:                        Stability; power
Water-lily:                            Purity in heart

Found in an old copy of The Australian Girl's Journal
Angus and Robertson Publishers...
I guess this is where "Rosemary for remembrance" comes from

Holy Spirit please grant me strength

Holy Spirit come, illumine me
Illumine this lowly heart of mine
Grant me thy love divine
Grant me comfort, grant me peace
Allow God's words to shine forth
That I may bring joy into the world
I long to be thy follower: thy lamb
I long to be accepted into thy divine plan
Lead me dear precious Jesus: fill my cup
Let thy love and words flow here: fill me up
I would be a precious vessel
Filled up only with love from thee
Send me forth to work for thee
Grant me thy presence all along
Grant me thy strength, let me be strong
Use my tongue to spread thy word
Use my hands to do thy work
Use my heart to show the world
That thy love overcomes all hurts
Grant me peace, grant me love
Sent to me daily from heaven above
Without you lord I am not much
Only a tiny grain of and and as such
I have no power, no glory too
For I would be blessed dear Lord by you
I am the cable: you are the electricity
Grant me words to send with speed
Into this saddened world ruled by greed
There are many who cry out in shame
Others indeed in poverty, powerless, in pain
Grant them all thy divine gift of faith
Allow them to be lifted up in grace
Let not their hearts be troubled...
Let not their fears be uncontrolled
Grant them peace and comfort
As they ask it of thee...
Amen

Prayer for entering the wedding feast

Dear gracious, merciful heavenly Father
We come before thy throne of grace...
We ask for guidance: you hear our prayers
You send answers as you see fit...
We beg your guidance, understanding and love
These blessings you send us from above...
Oh dearest Lord we are useless: weak
Yet we should be ever more: meek
Into thy hands we must surrender our burdens
That you may keep us safe, lift us over hurdles
Only you have the power to save and guide us
Only you are the perfection and love, beside us
Please lead us moment by moment...
Please help us to see...
Let your light shine upon us as we plead
For without you we are less than nothing...
Without you, what hope have we?
These simple human hearts bow down before thee
Begging that you open up our hearts and eyes
That you give us comfort to realise...
That we are clothed in filthy rags...
Our righteousness is nothing to your eyes
Without Jesus, we are filthy, despised
We can only come into thy wedding feast
Clothed in Jesus' righteousness...
Cleansed of sin and enfolded in thy loving arms
Only you can truly keep us safe from harm
Only through your blessings divine...
Are we ever worthy those steps to climb
Grant us favour in your blessed eyes
Cover us with your promises...
Keep us safe from harm, lifted up in thy loving arms
There; dearest Lord we do long to be...
Comforted, surrounded, cared for, set free...
Allow us dear Father, heavenly entry
Clothed in Jesus' righteousness let us be
Ever humbled, meek and mild...
Let us understand how it must be...
Without Jesus' white raiment: righteousness
Without Jesus' gold; tried in fire: faith and love
Without Jesus' eye salve: spiritual discernment
We cannot hope to enter in...
Please bring us as welcome guests
To thy blessed wedding feast
Amen

Rags to riches

We are sinners all: we are hopeless to a fault

It is only through Jesus that we may approach

It is only through Jesus we are welcome at all

To the wedding feast in heaven up above...

For sinful man was destined to take his fall...

It is only through Jesus we may enter in...

But our filthy rags must be changed from within

Into the pure white raiment that is Jesus gift...

Without this garment: none may enter in...

So...would you exchange your filthy rags?

Would you allow Jesus to provide for you

The blessed white wedding garment of his faith

"Buy of me gold tried in the fire" Jesus begs

It is through His faith and love: provided freely...

This white raiment is Christ's righteousness

Put it on if you would deign to enter in...

Allow Him to anoint thine eyes with eye-salve

This spiritual discernment is necessary too

For without it will you will be lost eternally...

Look through dear Jesus' eyes: open wide

Understanding of His blessings will be thy guide

There is nothing in us...

With which we can clothe the soul...

So that darkness is not seen...

Only with Christ's righteousness: character

This robe woven in the loom of heaven

Made for us in heaven...

Freely given unto us right here on earth

Can we ever hope to enter in

To that blessed wedding feast...

Rope burn

I tried to tie you up
You were going crazy: barking
Every time the arrows flew
You knew: you had to chase them up
It was a dangerous thing to do
No doubting...
I felt sorry that you cried out
Each time you squealed and yelped
It sounded like you'd been shot
Like as not...
The neighbours weren't delighted
So I took a rope to you
Undid your short lead strap
Made it longer so you could move
But I forgot how strong you were
I cried out as the rope pulled through
It burned: my skin: on fire too!
But at least you could now move
Just a little bit it's true
Peace returned as you finally learned
You had to stay out of the firing line
I knew you would be fine
That rope burn was worth the pain
You would be safe once again
And everyone could play a while
Shooting arrows all the while
Enjoying the activity...
Without your constant crazy barking

Brave heart

Is any brave enough to enter in?
The storm of my life seems never ending
Does any respect me enough?
To love the size of my waves as I dive...
Into this amazing life that God is sending!
Will I ever find  someone who will relish?
This calm that surrounds me as I pray...
Is any eager to set sail upon this expanse
That is my mind...this blessed gift God gave me...
I hope to find someone who wants to be in love
With this precious brain that contains...me
Someone who feels their own lifeblood flow
In unison with mine...all of the precious time
Not just now and then...but never ending...
Will you be the one to volunteer?
Will you be willing to sit upon the seat beside me?
Will you be the one to take my hand?
Will you pray with me and always guide me?
I would welcome you with peace and love...
I would remind you that this sea is the only one
That you would need to explore...
With me...beside you

Walk free

Thank God for people who care
Thank God for people who dare
To face up to the wrong doers
To stand up for what is right
They go into danger with such flair
Saving others who are lost to the light
Standing up to those human traffickers
Standing up for everyone's human rights
May the dear Lord bless them all
And keep them safe from harm
As they go about their blessed duties
All over this sin-filled world of ours

A touch of sadness

There's a touch of sadness in my eyes
Tears keep slipping freely by and by...
I am lonely without you by my side
For I miss you...want to kiss you...
Yes there's loneliness for you...
Are not with me: you are so far away...

There's a touch of gladness in my heart
For I know that once we are together
Once this blessed loving starts
We will never ever part...never be apart
For God promised you are meant for me

There's a touch of madness in my life
After all the ups and downs I've seen
There are some things no-one could believe
But still I know that God is real: I feel it
Yes I believe it: deep inside there is a seed

There's a touch of sadness in my eyes
Though I know you will come from blue skies
Dear Lord there is so much pain unrealised
Wars and rumours of wars to come...
Until that awful day is finally done...

Only love can hurt like this

There's a song I hear playing
On the radio all the time it seems
"Only love can hurt like this"
Paloma Faith sings these heartfelt lyrics
Her voice full of pain and suffering
The words echo within my heart and soul
How long since I felt just like this?
How many years ago did it pain me?
It seems like half a lifetime ago...
I was in love: ah unrequited love
Have I forgotten how it truly felt?
No: I remember all of it: all the pain
All those feelings come...flooding back again
The longing of heart and soul...
The need to be together...
To dream of our bodies touching...
Hands sparking with electricity...
Eyes looking, longing but unable...
My heart leaping at the sight of him
Beating out a tattoo of love...
So loud within my breast...
It seemed everyone could hear it...

Dreaming of freedom

We all have dreams
We all crave freedom
Be it just a simple thing
Like a few minutes free
We are lost in these lives
We are struggling to cope
Wondering...
"What is left for me?"
"Why am I lost at sea?"
"Where is this freedom?"
That was promised me
Troubles seem to beset us
Troubles come and never go
Until we ask ourselves the question
What am I here for, dear Lord?
And why can I not see the sky?
There are clouds all around me
There are tempests everywhere
What am I doing wrong?
Does anybody really care? 
Where is this blessed freedom?
Where is this peace that sets us free?

You will find the blessed freedom
You will find the peace you seek 
If you turn your eyes upon Jesus 
and allow Him into your heart dear
For his lifeblood was given up for thee

A walk in the clouds

If I took a walk in the clouds with you

If I asked you and you decided to come along

Would you be happy to see my thoughts take flight?

Would you come along just because I asked you to?

How about if I said that life was too short?

Would you agree? Admit that maybe...

There was some truth to what I was telling you

Do you believe that love comes to those you dream?

Do you understand how easy it would be?

To take the time to listen to my heart's song

Could you hear this pounding: this beating in my breast?

Does it sound just like a drum beat deep inside?

Does it keep in time with your heart too?

So come and walk with me...

Come and talk with me: hold my hand

Tell me that you feel the same as I do

Tell me that you also love me true...

A walk in the clouds would...

Be my dream: our dream: come true...

Rose teddy bear

Watch the Rose teddy bear
A present for my love I have
But now it's gone as is the day
And others stole them: all so brave
Is this life ever as fair as we have planned?
Does everything we ask for come?
Do we create our own happiness?
Do circumstances call for justice too?
How do we expect this life to be?
If we do not give everything we have...

Prelude to a new life

What does this life have to offer?
If you are afraid of love's first kiss?
How can a new love be welcome if you
Are afraid to move forward into bliss
Will you let your old fears be entertained?
Will you lose what you have newly gained?
Will fear of moving forward leave you in pain?
Ah the simple explanation that is to be gained
We tell ourselves we are not worthy of love
We listen to all those old wives tales...
We ignore the peace that settles into our souls
All because we fear that something will go astray
So we are reluctant...are immobilised by our fears
We give in to what others expect of us: tell us
We believe that everything is then impossible
We fall into old patterns and will not let them go
How can we move forward if we cannot let things go?
Where is our faith? Where is our belief  in life?
We cannot sail for better waters...
If we never lose sight of the shore...
So...I will let go of the guiding rails
I will welcome in the brand new day
I will let go of my past hurts
I will accept that life is good after all
For my faith in God is everything
In Him will I trust...I ask and He delivers
What more can I expect?
Life is never easy...should it be left up to Him?
Yes...absolutely! There is no better way
Trust in the almighty God who made us all!

A prayer for those in prison

I pray for all who are in prison

I pray for all who are in strife

Though it is hard to live when locked up

It is difficult to live confined...but

You don't need bars to keep you 

You don't need physical restraints

You can be locked within your psyche

By some painful distant past...

Though bars and walls enclose you

Though difficulties may surely arise...

You are free to pray to the Lord dear

He hears your every whispered word

Pray faithfully dear children... 

Your Father hears your every cry

Though some don't know the reasons

It is better to surrender in your seasons

Stay calm and remain focused...

Place one foot before the other...

Remain still, let peace wash over you...

Let your Father up above sustain you

For if you struggle against your bonds dear

Your faith will slowly and surely die

Know there must be a reason

Know there is a lesson to be learned

For when you are released and see all

God willing you will see the reason why

Deep Shadows

There are shadows hanging over me
There is sadness in my heart...
I am feeling less than blessed
As I wonder why I'm falling apart...
Did I do something so terrible?
Did I lose my sense of what is right?
Have I wandered so far and wide?
That I have lost my bearings in this life?
I travel along a steep incline...
Upwards ever still I climb...
And yet I feel like I need to search deeper
For this peace that no longer bides...
I long for the love of another soul
I long to be accepted once and for all
I know my Lord loves me as His blessed child
And yet because things seem to have stalled...
I feel a little overcome...
I feel bewildered and at a loss...
Is this what it will be like?
The more we come closer unto Thee
Do more doubts come crowding in?
When we think we are safe and free?

Satan knows our deepest fears
He plays upon them all...
Does God allow him to entertain?
Thoughts of taking us so low
Just as He did with God's servant Job
"Touch not his body, take not his life"
Yet he was allowed to take everything...
Even Job's family was not above that blow
He lost everything he had: was brought low
Yet Job cursed not His God...

Times are darkening...time is speeding past
Do we not tremble and quake?
For what is still to come...
We know not the hour of our Lord's coming
Yet: a darkness is coming to our shores
We have been warned to be ready
We know there is much that we must do
Let us not live in fear and trembling
We must be strong and take our stand
For we are all being tested for survival
Our dear Lord demands we stand in His band...

Honey can you hear me?

Honey: can you hear me?
Do you know I've called?
Honey are you with me?
Are you missing me at all?
Does your heart hear mine calling?
Does your soul understand?
That I'm always with you...
That I truly understand...
I know you are in trouble
I know just what you planned
But honey can you tell me?
How we'll ever get to land...
Honey: can you hear me?
Do you know how much it hurts?
That we still aren't together...
This pain: it really burns...
So honey can you hear me?
Honey: are you there?
Does your heart feel mine beating?
Here in time with yours...
Ah honey: how I miss you
Ah honey I am sad...
We were meant to find each other
We were meant to be together
But still we are apart...
Honey can you hear me?
Honey: are you there?
I need to know you love me
I need to know you care...

Free library

Found a cute little cubicle
In the park just today 
Beautiful gardens...
A little playground...
Water fountain...
Lawns so neat and green
A note written upon the nook
"Take a book...
Read a book...
Leave a book..."
Thought to take look
Next time I'll take my own book
And definitely leave it
In that little book nook...
For somebody else to read it

Detained Alien

Illegal immigrant
Illegal alien
Lost and alone
So far from home
Visa's out of date
What's to be your fate?
Nobody to talk to
Nobody to call
Who's to aid you?
When you've given your all
No money to speak of
No options on which to call
Don't understand the language
It's all too much to bear
Trapped in this bondage
Could they really detain you a year?
Praying to God above
The only way to go
For: there's no telephone for E.T.
On which to call home

Lay me down

Lay me down beside the river
Lay me down beside the sea
Lay me down until I shiver
As you lay down beside me

I need to feel your arms dear
I need to hear your beating heart
I need to know that you love me
And that we will never ever part

So lay me down my darling: enfold me
Take the time to whisper my name
Tell me that you'll love me forever
You'll never be sorry that you came

Don't ever stop dancing

Please don't ever stop dancing
Always hear that music sweet
Even when you are alone dear
Celebrate our love till it's complete
Keep on dancing to that rhythm
Feel our music within your soul
Remember I am always with you
Make lifelong happiness your goal
Hold my hand my sweet darling
Keep my love within your heart
For my dearest love forever young
It is how I would be remembered
Even when our precious song is done

Renewed Hope

After praying earnestly to my Lord
I feel peace returning: answers come
I no longer feel like I am burning
I am surrounded by calm: feeling blessed
I feel the power of the Lord almighty
Right here within my beating heart
I feel comfort for which I have been yearning
My cup He fills again: my peace restored
I am buoyed up with hope once more
I can cope with all this pain
That recently had me churning...
I praise the Lord for He has come
Taken my hand and lifted me up
Here I stand upon my Rock
From this blessed place there is no turning

Feeling Distraught

I feel so distraught: strained
Life feels so terrible once again
Uncertainty is flashing before me
I am at a loss: my body in pain
Sadness at circumstance is hitting
Seems everything's fallen down a drain
Whirlpool sinking: darkness drinking
My world is disappearing all the same
Heart palpitating: breathing constrained
Face flushed: head rushed: sweat stained
Panic attack ensuing: fear for you is doing
All this to me and nothing seems to stop it
Got to pray: relieve this from laying a claim
I cannot let this thinking destroy me...
Must allow God to employ me...
Uplift me and not allow me to be adrift again
So I turn my eyes to Jesus: pray to Him
Lay hold of His promises: let His love
Let His blessed promises be my mainstay
Take hold of the hand that is offered
Take His blessed words into my tortured soul
Without Him I am nothing...lost and alone
Dear Jesus my precious Saviour
I turn to you to save me: please save me
Yes my Lord please: save me once again

Anxiety attack

My heart is pounding 
Stomach twisted in knots
Feeling ill and anxious
Terrible painful fear I've got 
Like someone's kicked me
Right in the belly: in my guts
Sweat is pouring into my eyes
I look around: I am paralysed...
Like a tiny frightened rabbit 
Caught in blinding headlights
Should I run away from here?
Should I turn and fight?
But there is nobody else here
I am all alone...
I need this darkness turned to light 

I give up my worries

I give up my worries

I give up my troubles too

For I know it is useless

In this way to continue

Dear Lord I am just human

I am a simple person too

I need to trust you more

I need of you to implore

Please carry my burdens

Please lift me up as well

For I am struggling to make it

I am fighting to get through its true

Oh Lord please guide me ever nearer

Along this winding road to you...

Its your birthday

Tomorrow will be your birthday

But you’re so far away…

I won’t be able to hug you

Until some other day, but

Know my thoughts are with you

Know my heart is true…

Honey I pray you have a good day

Until I finally get to hug you…

Written 31 July 2015

42 Things I love about you

On your birthday I was at a loss

So I brainstormed for a while…

And this is what I came up with...

I hope it makes you smile...

1. I love to hear your voice each and every day…
2. I love to think of you no matter where you are…
3. I love the way you’ve grown on me…
4. I love you more and more each and every day…
5. I love your soul because you are my mate…
6. I love your eyes, they are so beautiful…
7. I love to think I can see through them into your very soul…
8. I love the way that you love me…
9. I love the way we love each other…
10. I love that we are meant to be…
11. I love the way God chose you for me…
12. I love that we are destined to be…
13. I love…loving you…mwahh…Kisses for you too…
14. I love the way we talk and how I make you laugh…
15. I love to imagine you and me in a bubble bath…
16.  I love the way you look in your photographs…
17. I love the way you already belong to me (and I belong you)…
18. I love you more than any other fish in the sea…
19. I love to read our conversations over and over again…
20. I love that you wrote me a letter, making me so very happy…
21. I love you like I’ve never loved before…
22.  Yes each and every single day, I love you more and more…
23. I love the way you care about how I feel each day…
24. I love the way you love God…
25. I love that you love to pray each and every day…
26. I love how you love me even when I’m sad…
27. I love that you love me when we are both bad…
28. I love the sweet nothings you whisper in my ear…
29. I love you my darling and will through out the years…
30. I love the love songs you sing out loud to me…
31. I always want you to continue singing songs to me…
32. I love that I go to sleep thinking of you…
33. I love that I wake up with thoughts of you too…
34. I love it when you message me…
35. I love the way you sound on the telephone…
36. I love that soon we will together in our own home…
37. I love you more than infinity (Santiago’s favourite number)…
38. I love our conversations every single day…
39. I love you and don’t care what anyone would say…
40. I love that you love me and I love you…
41. I love absolutely every little thing about you
42. I love feeling this love for you too!

Why worry my daughter 15 August 2015

Why worry so my daughter?

Why let Satan take you down?

Haven’t I already promised and delivered

My Son to grant your unearthly crowns

He is fighting for you daily

He sees into your very heart

We know what you consider

The worries of your precious heart

Fear not my precious daughter

Fear not and pray each day

For I hear your words my daughter

I already know for what you cry

My Son is in the Temple

He intercedes for you it’s true

You must realise the burden

Is already lifted up from you

Remember to continue daily

In your prayers and soul searching

I have given my precious Son

That you may have peace: everyone

All is going as I have decided

All is falling into place

Remember to accept as already given

My promises for all of you

Fret not weary traveller

Rely upon my angels dear

For they surround you continually

You feel their touch its clear

My angels surround you always

They are right there next to you

I send them to save and deliver

All my children: you are one too

Fear not my precious children

Fear not: rest upon my promises

Remember: I am watching over you

I would allow no harm to come down

Pray unceasingly: call upon me

I hear your every whisper

I understand what you’re going through

I already know what is coming for you

Continue in your life now

Allow my guidance to flow through

My words are always entering your head

And I know you write them true

Change not your inclination

Lose not your faith in me

I am already there before you

Arranging everything for thee

Let not your heart be troubled

Let not your mind be a-feared

All is happening as is destined

And you have nothing to fear from me…

Questions and answers 15 August 2015

I ask my questions

I tell you of my woes

You know already Lord

Just how this story goes…

I am lost upon this road here

I am distressed and dismayed

For though I ask in faith Lord

I fear that I have strayed…

I allow my fears to encompass me

I allow my terror to grow

For though I have faith in Jesus

I know my worry shows…

Forgive me Lord for slipping

Forgive me Lord for falling down

Though I long for your heaven

And for your unearthly crown…

I know I am a sinner lord

I know I am less than sure

I know you see inside of me

I know you see my heart is pure

I ask forgiveness for my weakness

I ask and I know you hear

For though I am lost in weariness

I understand just how all this goes…

You already know my every thought

You already see my brighter days

Yet as I look I only see

My darkest, deepest problems: my woes…

Ah Lord Forgive my weaknesses

Ah Lord let me of your strength borrow

For I know that you have already given

The very best you had: to my sorrow…

You sent your Son from heaven

You gave him up for me

Ah dear Lord forgive us

For thinking so little of Thee

Dear Jesus sends His angels

Yes: for you and for me

They surround us: keep us safe

Yes they are with us continually…

Ah please lift me out of sadness

Please fill my empty cup for me

For though outwardly I may seem calmer

You truly do see inside of me…

Ah Lord I am ashamed to discover

That I am weak and need you still

For without you I am nothing

A helpless baby: crawling up a hill…

Please my Lord: uphold me

Please My Dear One: come

Forgive me as I struggle

To be your worthy one…

I see I am a sinner

Yet I also see your Son

For though I struggle daily

You have provided me your Son…

Ah Lord I am so troubled

Ah Lord I want to be true

But though I think I am okay

There are still obstacles to overcome for you…

Forgive me my dearest Father

Forgive me my Precious One

I am faltering so close it’s true

So close and yet so far I am to you…

I see my human condition

I see how truly weak I am

And as I look more deeply

It is only through you I can…

You are my true soul giver

You are my Saviour it is true

I cannot think to continue

Without you living in this heart here…

I am lost in this wilderness

Of earthly life we love so dear

Yet I know you’re my deliverer

And heaven beckons me near…