Threads and chains

I've broken many of those old chains

Using hammer and fine chisel too

I've managed to slowly chip away

At those things that held me to you

I was chained within my heart and soul

Hurt by all those things you said and did

Even though you've passed away; dead

I realise; you still control me in my head

All those many times you made me feel

Like I was worthless; less than human; see

I believed everything you told me; all you said

I was conditioned; trapped in this marriage bed

I know I made it with you; stripping off old sheets

Laying down the new: allowing you to rob me

Of my confidence; of my beliefs; of my sanity

For in my naivete I allowed you to control me

I was conditioned to react in certain ways

Fear made me feel thus constrained

For deep inside; I must confess; on many days

I was afraid of you; of your anger; pained

Now; as I am learning to live unchained

I am beginning to believe in "me" again

I am sawing through invisible silken threads

Balloons of pain; I release within my head

As these balloons slowly float up out of sight

I know I am now free at last; no longer must I fight

I release the pain of days gone by: yes it's true

Just as they disappear; I am slowly freed from you

No longer must I quietly walk; head bent low

I am standing tall; I know my pace is still slow

But I am cleaning out all the pain of my life

All those eggshells; laid by you; for your wife

Now don't get me wrong; please understand

There were many good times amid the bad

But somewhere along the line of life; I had to flee

Forgetting to hang on to all that was really me