When I am troubled I escape the confines of the house and walk outside so that I can be nearer to nature. Here I feel so much closer to and am able to converse with my Lord God. Here I am surrounded by the beauty of everything that nature is. I feel the wind blowing in my hair, I hear the birds singing out their joy, I feel the sun shining down upon me from above and I feel a closeness that I can't always feel inside the concrete and bricks that divide me from the outside world. It is here that I am closest to my Dear One. It is here that we can converse and come together and join our minds together!
There is nothing more relaxing for me than walking along the old railway tracks beside my home, feeling the fresh air on my face as I walk and talk with God. It is here that I have spent so many walks drawing near to and taking my strength from Him so that I can cope with another day. These last few years have been the hardest of my life. The most turbulence has been blown my way as I have tried my best to support my husband and family through a major battle with depression and stress.This is where I recharge my batteries so I can deal with what ever is next on the agenda.
It is here that I have found my own strength to carry on and do what must be done. It is here that I have learned simple lessons about myself and found exactly what I needed all along. I found myself, my inner strength that I didn't even know I had. I learned not to be afraid!
I learned to rely on my intuition and found peace within my heart. How? I simply opened up my heart to God and asked Him to come inside and live in me! My body is the temple and with Him in my heart I am no longer afraid! I feel as though I can converse with Him at any time without even speaking. I know His angels are always near and ask the Holy Spirit to guide me every day.
My first words are always "Dear Lord please guide my every thought word and deed! Lead me this day to do your will and help me to help others." Simple! My last words each night I pray for my Lord to send His angels to encamp around all of my family, friends and loved ones!
I send my ripples of love out into the world and imagine then gently spreading out just like the ripples in a pond where one of God's creatures has disturbed the quiet stillness of the blessed evening as the moon rises over our home with it's peaceful glow! My prayers are full of thanks. I thank my Dear One for everything that I have: my family; the very air that I breathe; the sunshine; the wind; the wonderful wild life that lives all around my home! I thank Him for this; my body that has taken me so long to love and appreciate. I thank Him for my big ears; my scars; my ability to walk and speak; to listen and understand; my ability to move and feel and see all that is around me. Thank you Lord for giving me a sense of smell and taste and for the ability to appreciate everything that you have given me!
Thank you for taking my sins upon your shoulders and creating a right spirit within me. Thank you for everything that I am and can be. Without you Lord I am nothing. I am a wire: I am nothing without you; for you are the electricity that animates me. I am the empty puppet that cannot move without your loving hand to guide me. I am nothing unless you are there with me; guiding my every movement. Thank you for finding me worthy of your love and forgiveness. May I be truly worthy of your faith in me! Amen.
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