Apology

I apologise if I seem distant
I am sorry if I do not reply
Life can be ended in an instant
Here in a few words is "why"
I no longer have time to chat
I no longer wish to waste our time
Though life seems alright to you
For me things are no longer "fine"
I see the limit of life's endurance
As I watch my dear mum decline
No longer is she strong; vibrant
No; soon it will be her time...
I've been withdrawing from the pain
By escaping into God's nature
Finding comfort in fresh air; sunshine
Seemingly patient on the outside
But full of turmoil all the while
Worrying about how it will be
When my dearest mum leaves me
Returns to her Lord and keeper
He who made both you and me...