This is how I feel

Torn in two

Between my Lord and you 

My love feels enlivened 

Yet this pain 

Makes my heart feel divided

This is how I feel

Torn in two; for you

Bring me such joy; still

I am beset

Am I lost and yet

I am just now; found

That lost little girl

Has finally come around

She has been silenced

Her tears; her fears

Stilled at last

Letting go of her past

Shredding all the papers

Is like jettisoning the vapours

I'm free-falling 

A hole in my parachute

Will you still catch me?

Hold me up; balance me?

As I teeter; fall

You have become my all

My reason for living 

Your love you are giving 

Your trust in me; I believe

You; I will not deceive

But; am I deceiving myself?

Where am I headed?

In this earthly life

Will there be strife?

Smooth sailing is a dream

Life is never straight forward

It is a curved path I tread...

This is how I feel right now

Away from you

But when we’re together

I am so ‘in love’

So happy; joyful; beaming

Must I be?

Constantly questioning my choices?

Do I really need to listen?

To all of these small voices

The world calls; will I heed it?

My hands work; bleed; do I not feel it?