Listen to the rain

The skies grow darker as
The rain begins to fall
I sit here listening
As I wonder about it all
You should have been here
Right beside me: next to me
It was our anniversary after all
Where are you my love?
What happened to your soul?
Has it all been for nothing ?
Has everything been wiped clean?
Does anybody understand me?
Anybody at all ? Know what I mean?
Does your soul fly heavenward?
Does it simply cease to exist?
Do we just go to sleep for eternity?
Do we crumble unto dust?
Do we exist only in memories?
Are we forgotten and left alone?
How long must any soul atone?
So many unanswered questions
So many thoughts pass through my head
It's just that honey: I still can't believe you're dead!