I thought I could

I thought I could
Cope with this pain
But tonight...I've had enough
Can't stop these tears
Can't pretend any more
I'm not okay...I am a mess
And I need you so much
God help me please
When will this hurting stop?
I've got to leave
Got to get away
Heading to the beach
Try to find some peace
I just cannot watch
Everyone having fun
I just can't pretend
That I'm okay
Oh Lord I'm lost
Please show me how
To save myself
To let it go
I hear the waves
Upon the beach
I know you're here
Within my reach
And finally as I sit and cry
The peace descends
I find a way
To see the light
Of another day...