Scared of change

I can't help it...
I'm scared of change...
I am afraid you will see...
This outer shell...
And not recognise...
The inner me...
I know I'm being ridiculous...
But I love you so...
Can't bear the rejection...
You understand this fear...
I hope...
I've carried it all my life...
Like a shadow...
I've never felt like...
I deserved your love...
Or anyone's for that matter...
Ah honey...
These tears...
Escape from my eyes...
Sneak down my face...
I love you so much...
It hurts...
Pray for me...
Help me...
I'm drowning...
Save me...