Confessions of a shopaholic

Unwinding with my girl
Watched a chick flick
A girly movie for us two
All about Rebecca
Who was always shopping
Simply because it made her
Feel good: it lifted her!
We all have times when
We feel the need to shop
To fill that something: that void
Do we really understand ourselves?
Do we even know why?
We have to have those "things" 
Just to feel okay: all right!
What makes us tick?
What makes us need?
What is this basic instinct?
What is this greed?
To have some pretty thing...
To have some useless piece
Simply to satisfy some hurt...
Some inner pain...
I used to do the same
I used to gather things
Around me: to soothe that child..
Yes that inner hurting little girl
The one that felt so lost and abused...
The one that needed things
To ease that pain, that sting...

After losing everything to the flood
I realised that it was just that...
A senseless gathering...
A soothing feeling...
Some comfort to be gained...
By having something pretty 
To take home...like a trophy
A pleasant diversion to say the least
Until you actually get to look around
And see...or are made to see
That you have been gathering "things"
Simply because you feel the need
Not because you actually needed it!