I feel like crying 2

Here I am: trying to be strong
Trying to be the tough one but
I am not succeeding: epic fail!
I am not very good at lying
I am not being very strong
I am afraid: I don't want to lose my mum
I feel like crying: like sobbing out loud
I want to be taken care of for a change
Lord I need your strength for I have none
Lord I need your patience for I have none

Lord I need your comforter to keep me safe
Please help me to cope my dearest one
for I am in sore need of comforting!
I feel that if mum goes then I will lose my dad
Then I will feel so alone: just like in my dreams
Sad & alone: all by myself: like a little child
Crying all by myself: lost & forlorn!